The Big Vent

 I'm usually not one that really likes to vent so openly, usually it's among friends,lol.  It's whatever though, i feel like sharing in this way, today. So here goes, .......I'm really an open forth coming individual. I share me with those that are in my life. I trust, value and appreciate my close love ones because it's logical to me to able to be 110% real with those i surround myself. Otherwise why be around them if i can't give all of me. Cause "it's whatever"....... Really there's nothing to be afraid of  to me by being forth coming, it's freedom. I figure what's the worst thing that could happen .....you have information about me that i will admit to. Whoops there goes the power struggle, nothing to be held over my head. I'm not ashamed about who i am and what i do. Now  i am selective about who i let into my life, simply because everyone isn't a good fit for me. Now my issue at the moment is with people who claim to be open, free, it is what it is, go with the flow people that get all choked up and stifled but carry on as if they are not. Like i can't feel it, really........ Everything about them isn't so go with the flow "ish" all of a sudden. The vibe halts and the flow stop, now it isn't what it is anymore it's something else. It's feels more like control than anything and or maybe resistance. I really don't know, i'm not a psychologist or psychiatrist but what  i do know, a shift happens. May be we don't owe anyone anything however common consideration is a nice thing, though. So, when the shift happens, if you're really not feeling going into something or desire to change your position that's fine but why not share that. Why not just say you're not feeling going in a certain direction anymore or you're uncomfortable about the the current situation in reference to you. Share your concerns what's the worst thing that can happen.I'm more than willing to do that, i think it save time and energy. Otherwise it feels like a person isn't being sincere or lack of a better word, playing. I'm sure i have room for growth, maybe i should look at being more allowing, less judgmental, release the need to control how some else communicates and just be more loving in general. I'm a work in process and this is a journey.