Sometimes in life you meet a STAR. How does one identify who they are. They shine brighter than anything you've ever seen. They feel more than right than your perfect fitting blue jeans. The passion, between you and the star, burns hotter than you've ever known thus far. It's hard to see clear in their presence and due to that fact alone, confusion is almost always near and prone.Their brilliance often over shadows everything and eventually all that ever was burns out, in a questionable manner. Last but not least, a Star don't last in your life for long, their presence is a fleeting one and their departure is certainly unbeknown. The Star that graced my life was unlike any other because when it was time for it to go it took my heart with it. I wasn't prepared for that. It wasn't like a thief in the night or anything because I watched My Star leave. No problem right..... Crazy thing, as I watched My Star leave there was a soft sweet almost palatable aroma that breezed by. Day began to turn to night. I began to get cold. I began to ache. It became hard for me to breathe. I could hear this faint ripping noise, that seemed to come from inside, that was getting louder in my head. Before i was even aware of what was happening, it Happened. OUCH.......Star disappeared and to my surprise my heart did to. Who Knew, I didn't..... I didn't know they were so attached. Instantly, I needed covering. I felt vulnerable, empty and yearned for some Mothering. Wow!!!.... I was literally speechless. I wanted to scream and erase that moment, hoping for a rewind or to simply disown it. I'm now left with emotions to do nothing with, no words to describe them and no place to put them. OMG, do u get it! where my heart was is dripping. I'm just wandering, in the dark, it seems and I can only attribute it to the once well lite heart, of the Star, that I dwell in delightfully, has moved so far. It's like i'm on the cold dark side of the moon, dazed and desolated. Left with my thoughts, questions and memories of the flame that truly never faded.
Luckily, though in a state of disbelief, I can see the beauty in what I shared with My Star. Through my tears, my short moments of sadness and near over whelming desires to see My Star, I smile. There's so much to smile and feel good about. So many beautiful memories of moments that could never be again with anyone. I'm grateful that My Star chose me to share a Star experience. I'm must remind myself not to tell too much, to just "Be Quiet". What we shared was ours to share. No regret, No anger and No judgement....... I played my part. I freely gave my heart. I was willing to go all in, accepting the rewards and consequences in the end. As for my heart, turns out it was only a piece of my heart that left with My Star. Maybe one day My Star will journey back this way. Since a piece of my heart is firmly attached, it should be easy for My Star to find it's way back..................... to me.
Jus Love
Michelle Madison
