It's what ever

                                      It's What Ever


I haven't been blogging lately and though i want to and feel as if i should, i haven't. I guess i had some ummm more important things to do with my time then sharpen my writing skills, express what i'm feeling and share my world. Yeah, whatever Michelle, sure you have,lol.  So here it goes. I'm writing with nothing really to say. I've been gossiping more lately about others of course. It wouldn't be gossip if was about me or would it,lol........  But any who what's up with these dudes that allow women to take care of them, where's the pride in being a male, that sh*t is not sexy, for real though. I'm just saying........later for that b.s.  I guess the opposite of that question is; What's up with these women taking care of these grown ass dudes, what's really going on? Ladies your need/desire for control and power gone so far you have attracted a man that you can control. Maybe there is some penis envy in this equation, idk......Believe it or not he runs to you for authorization of his whole life,lol. Ladies, ladies, ladies ya making it hard for us women, who prefer men to be men, men who thrive on the feeling of being a provider and that like to take of their women. I mean, the natural roles of man and woman are shifting and that's cool, i guess but how do we maintain balance if everything between man and women is becoming more and more gray. Are we as women losing our natural/innate feminine essence through this evolution? Are our men losing their natural/innate masculine desires in the process as well? I mean, I'm not saying that that is a bad thang..... i'm just saying. Balance is everything, feel me. I've always heard that a man gets his motivation to excel, to achieve greatness, get money and mo money from the need to provide for his family. Ladies if your income exceeds your man, Great! however he is still a man. Allow him to be a man and provide, be your rock, take responsibility for your home. Of course by all mean use your feminine wise, your softness, your love  and woo him into having your way. There's no competition ever, all situations can be a win win. I'm sure you can come up with something, *wink wink*, be creative.

Mz. MadiSun

The Big Vent

 I'm usually not one that really likes to vent so openly, usually it's among friends,lol.  It's whatever though, i feel like sharing in this way, today. So here goes, .......I'm really an open forth coming individual. I share me with those that are in my life. I trust, value and appreciate my close love ones because it's logical to me to able to be 110% real with those i surround myself. Otherwise why be around them if i can't give all of me. Cause "it's whatever"....... Really there's nothing to be afraid of  to me by being forth coming, it's freedom. I figure what's the worst thing that could happen .....you have information about me that i will admit to. Whoops there goes the power struggle, nothing to be held over my head. I'm not ashamed about who i am and what i do. Now  i am selective about who i let into my life, simply because everyone isn't a good fit for me. Now my issue at the moment is with people who claim to be open, free, it is what it is, go with the flow people that get all choked up and stifled but carry on as if they are not. Like i can't feel it, really........ Everything about them isn't so go with the flow "ish" all of a sudden. The vibe halts and the flow stop, now it isn't what it is anymore it's something else. It's feels more like control than anything and or maybe resistance. I really don't know, i'm not a psychologist or psychiatrist but what  i do know, a shift happens. May be we don't owe anyone anything however common consideration is a nice thing, though. So, when the shift happens, if you're really not feeling going into something or desire to change your position that's fine but why not share that. Why not just say you're not feeling going in a certain direction anymore or you're uncomfortable about the the current situation in reference to you. Share your concerns what's the worst thing that can happen.I'm more than willing to do that, i think it save time and energy. Otherwise it feels like a person isn't being sincere or lack of a better word, playing. I'm sure i have room for growth, maybe i should look at being more allowing, less judgmental, release the need to control how some else communicates and just be more loving in general. I'm a work in process and this is a journey.